i have an interview wednesday evening for an office manager position at walsh construction. i love that the salesmen (people i never met in person) are recommending me for jobs that cross their paths. everyone at martin marietta is really going to great lenghts to help me find a better job. teri (my old boss) is so supportive and encouraging. they all think quite a lot of me. i, of course, don't think i'm well-qualified for this office manager position. i know that i could do it (eventually); i just don't know why anyone should give me the chance to prove that.
if i don't get this job, i think i'll be getting an interview for the martin marietta district office sometime soon. they promoted the hell out of that department at the end of the year, so they definitely have a place for me.
what does it matter? i should be in hawaii. i'm not. i don't know why i'm not. i don't know if i ever will be again. i don't know why that is either. since i'm not there, i obviously can't go to school there. so, i should return to school here. will i? i don't know.
not much else is new. been dating (disastrously). been reading quite a lot. (check out sarah vowell.)
i miss the ocean.
i miss the decisiveness of last spring, of knowing what i want.
i was happy once. hawaii changed me. i wish i felt like it would be the same again this time around, but i don't.