in a sort of experiment in self torture,
i've decided to take up smoking for a week.

i don't know why exactly.
i already know that i think it's a disgusting and foolish habit.
but it's something to do,
i guess.

i'm just trying to understand what people like about it.

AND

as a secondary yet some how more important experiment,
i'm trying to see if it's actually possible
for me to look cool while doing it.

or not cool exactly,
but comfortable
and competent.