sWell (shakewell) wrote,

wild n out OR shark around

i like to lose control. i like not being the me i'm expected to be.

i don't, however, always like living with the consequences of those jaunts into freedom when control is returned. moreover, it's difficult to cope with the envy of that freedom under the constraints of normal life.

but, honestly, i don't think the things i do are all that bad. i think i'm way too concerned about everything when i'm supposedly "in control." and, in that sense, i think i'm losing control at those times too, only to something worse and something far less enjoyable.

the ipwib crew was in rare form last night at snack mountain. it was a fabulous tryst that hailed back to the glory days of our youths. big ups to spooge, overlord, opiate, chuwie, stewbot, quarantine, anross, beatfreak, fetha and kahymann. apologies and many thanks to everyone i molested, embarrassed, puked on/near, stole beer from or humped on the dance floor.

i love my friends. i love that they take care of me when they can and put up with me when they have to. i wish i could see them more often. time and distance fade the love that i feel when i am with them. it's unfortunate that they cannot always be there for me when i need them, but i am still grateful for the time i do have with them.

also, i apparently love corey hart's "i wear my sunglasses at night" more than anyone ever knew. i am fucking weird.
Tags: alcohol, anross, anxiety, beatfreak, bloomington, chuwie, comfort level, fetha, friendship, hot trax, ipwib, kahymann, opiate, overlord, quarantine, spooge, stewbot
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