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... i'll stuff my german chocolate cake leftovers down the garbage disposal (before i end up with sweater cake) and pretend it's for you!

finally got around to starting my statistics homework (due tomorrow) today. i won't say i understand it any more clearly, but it sure is coming to me more easily. and really, in a discipline where application is practically all there is to it, isn't that what matters most? yeah, i know, i know... heh. don't bother arguing.

calculus is still a struggle, but i will survive.

being a full-time student (ha! i typed stupid first) is a lot tougher than i imagined. i mean, i've always been a full-time stupid (i did it again?!) student, but i've never gone to school and not worked. when i was working too, i always had an excuse to cut my losses and call my work "good enough." now, there's no excuses not to be completing assignments, revising, checking my work, outlining, reviewing and just plain studying. i don't think i've ever just studied a day in my life before this semester. i'd read what i had to in order to do assignments. i never just sat down and thought about things so i could understand them better. this is really, really weird for me. however, i can tell it's paying off. i find myself not only able to, but excited about synthesizing ideas from all my geology classes and labs. i'm actually able to discuss things with my instructors instead of just rattling off definitions and summarizing broad concepts. i guess it helps a lot that i'm so interested in geology.

has anyone else noticed the resurgence in burlesque tours lately? i find it odd.

last night, my brother and i stopped at the flying j gas station at highway 37 and interstate 465. i don't know why, but all of the lights outside of the station were off. it was really unnerving. i don't know why they light up those places like the sun, but i'm glad that they do. it just isn't right pumping gas in the dark.

speaking of gas stations, is it even possible to pump gas without pre-paying these days? i was thinking about it last night because i had a lot of cash on me, but, when we pulled up, i read a notice that the flying j had recently gone to all pre-pay. when it comes to cash, i don't like to pre-pay because 1) i like to fill up my tank and b) i never can remember how many gallons my cars hold. i won't be surprised at all if paper money becomes obsolete in my lifetime.

tonight, i'm going to the melody inn to see danny the wildchild, whom i think i saw in chicago once. it weird, though, because i thought i really enjoyed his set and it turns out he's a drum and bass/jungle dj. so, tonight, once and for all, i will settle the great debate over whether or not i like drum and bass. no drugs, no booze, just me and the beats. big ups to my man johnny utah spinning tonight as well.


this month, i set out to write in this journal everyday. it's not so much about keeping track of my day-to-day activities (though that ended up being a lot of what i chronicled). it's more about tracking how i'm feeling and what i'm thinking about certain situations or just life in general. i read some stuff i wrote in wichita that got me onto this idea. i find it empowering to realize the changes i've made and also motivating to see those i have not.

but, really, i'm envious of other people's abilities to recollect all the minutiae of a significant event in their lives. since i can't expect to improve my memory by such drastic leaps and bounds, i can at least have a log to look back on. (god damn prepositions!)

anyway, i did pretty good this first month. missed a couple days due to lack of access and wrote a few pointless entries. so, i'm keeping the same goal for october, but i'm planning on doing much better.


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Sep. 28th, 2005 12:22 am (UTC)
i think the prepaying thing is because gas is so damned expensive now, it's really killing the gas stations when people pump and run.

of course, it's still annoying as hell... i don't think i've actually filled my car up for at least a year, for the reasons you mentioned (and because i rarely have $40 in cash on me.)

and i'm the same way with my own memory, which is why i try to update semi-frequently. there are some 3-week gaps in my lj during which time i have absolutely NO idea what happened.
Sep. 28th, 2005 06:37 pm (UTC)
Yeah because everyone would like to read everyfday about how depressed you are and how you like cutting yourself.

Sep. 28th, 2005 08:05 pm (UTC)
obviously, you keep coming back for more.
Sep. 28th, 2005 08:20 pm (UTC)
you're not folling anyone, you know.

a quick check revealed that exactly zero entries this month are about being depressed or cutting.

looking back, july and august seem clear as well. and june. may.

and, since this isn't the great american novel, i'm not here to entertain anyone. a journal is a "personal record of occurrences, experiences, and reflections kept on a regular basis; a diary." this journal, as i said, is meant to inform my future self, as well as any current and future readers who want to know how and what i think.

maybe you're the one who should stop dwelling and just let it go.
Sep. 29th, 2005 12:00 am (UTC)
Re: you're not folling anyone, you know.
"you're folling anyone"
Maybe you got me confused with someone else. Sorry.

Sep. 29th, 2005 12:31 am (UTC)
Re: you're not fooling anyone, you know.
ok. how can i have you confused with someone else when i haven't even refered to who you are or aren't specifically?

maybe you misunderstood or assumed again. surprise.
Sep. 29th, 2005 02:08 am (UTC)
Re: you're not fooling anyone, you know.
Well obviously you are referring me to someone from your past, when in fact, we've never met. Suprise.

Sep. 29th, 2005 02:13 am (UTC)
Re: you're not fooling anyone, you know.
i didn't refer you to anyone and i didn't refer to you as being someone in particular. i'm curious where you'd think that i did such a thing.
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