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extreme update

(what's with everything being extreme these days? extreme bible school. extreme makeover. XXtreme body blinkers. chill the fuck out already.)

i spent the last couple of days in madison for troy courtney and bri purvis' wedding. things were pretty hectic. i must have gone to wal*mart half a dozen times. good grief. but i helped out as much as i could and had a pretty good time too.

i didn't cry during the ceremony. not even close. i've really lost faith in a lot of things over the last few years and my cynicism is overwhelming. it's not that i don't love the people in my life right now. but i really feel like my heart is broken in some irreparable way. i just can't seem to believe in things the way i used to. i've gone from hopeless romantic to just plain hopeless.

it's not as bad as all that really...

stewbot looked positively dashing in his tuxedo. he and i talked a lot about what our own wedding(s) might be like someday--what type of ceremony we'd have and who'd be our bridesmaids/groomsmen. of my three best female friends, one of them once told me i should kill myself and get it over with and the other two can't be within ten feet of one another without getting into a fistfight. needless to say, unless i get some new friends, i'm planning on a very small ceremony.

not that i'm really planning anything, of course, because i look like a man and no one ever has or ever will ever love me.

to be honest, i'm not particularly interested in sharing my wedding with anyone. i suppose my mother could probably guilt me into letting her be involved, but that would not be my choice.

besides, i find weddings to be colossal wastes of money, especially for most of the couples i've known. but for everyone really. i'm sure it's wonderful to have a beautiful gown and catered reception, but i'd just rather have something i actually needed and something more permanent.

that's just me. i don't know where i got the confounded hang-ups with money.

anyway, i had a great weekend. stewbot and i got troy and bri the best present they registered for and it was wrapped to perfection. i hope they enjoy using it as much as we enjoyed shopping for it.

i ran into my mom and my sister as we were driving out of town. it was nice to stop and chat, but i'm also really glad to know my mom is able to get out on her own a little bit now.

i missed like a thousand phone calls this weekend while my cell was dead and or misplaced, but practically no one left messages. i really hate that. just so you know, i never return calls without messages. i figure the lack of addendum indicates that they were completely unimportant.

well, i guess i'd better unpack before i get to used to seeing my bags in the hallway and they become permanent fixtures.

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dorso
Jun. 5th, 2005 08:50 pm (UTC)
thats just me though
i leave messages when i DONT need people to call me back. thats because i can sum up what i need to say in 30 seconds. when i call someone and dont leave a message, i expect it to be returned, and vice versa. i actually have something worth talking about.
spk1121
Jun. 5th, 2005 10:48 pm (UTC)
Xtreme Luggage
i'm sure it's wonderful to have a beautiful gown and catered reception, but i'd just rather have something i actually needed and something more permanent. that's just me. i don't know where i got the confounded hang-ups with money.
Well, it's theoretically a once-in-a-lifetime celebration of love, family, and commitment. To that end, it might as well be memorable! Still, I can understand how some people would be more practically-minded and want to save for a house, or pay off debt. Whatever works.

well, i guess i'd better unpack before i get to used to seeing my bags in the hallway and they become permanent fixtures.
Ha, ha, ha! I do that all the time, I usually don't unpack for a week because I'll just finish living out of it until all the clothes are used.

not that i'm really planning anything, of course, because i look like a man and no one ever has or ever will ever love me.
Why do women constantly feel the need to tear themselves down, especially when it comes to looks? Even when they're "just joking," it's usually coming from a very negative place. I hate that, I'm sure you are just fine! Dare I say even beautiful? I am willing to chance it!

i've gone from hopeless romantic to just plain hopeless.
I can sympathize with that, believe me. *sigh*
shakewell
Jun. 5th, 2005 10:51 pm (UTC)
Re: Xtreme Luggage
that's just sort of a running joke with me. some shit some girls like to bring up whenever they can't win an argument. so it's not coming from me at all. i just think it's hilarious.
spk1121
Jun. 5th, 2005 11:15 pm (UTC)
We all scream for something...
Well, alright...

I'll have to try that ice cream you recommended in the previous entry. I'm a big frozen treats junkie -- my friend librarygal says she only comes over to take advantage of my constant supply of ice cream bars! Mmm, mint chocolate chip ice cream... *drools*
elizabethford
Jun. 6th, 2005 06:56 am (UTC)
amen
on the money-wasting thing...

every time my cousin would announce the cost of something (cake, pictures, dress, cheap-ass-looking tiara) for her wedding last june, i'd say, "what? that's fucking crazy!" and really piss her off. had it been my wedding, i'd rather have skipped the whole thing and just gotten the cash, assuming someone else had planned on paying for it in the first place. it also seems as though the more expensive the wedding is, the more toes are stepped on in the process.

but anyway.
joe_fisher
Jun. 6th, 2005 08:49 am (UTC)
*cough* bullsh...*cough*

you never know what the future holds! Reguardless of what you look like, especially what you think you look like, there is always someone out there who could really compliment you. I mean hell, I literally have no clue what you look like, nor do I really care, and I'd love for the opportunity to meet up and go and destroy something. speaking of wich, soon as I figure out what the hell I'm doing, we should do just that!
menlie
Jun. 6th, 2005 10:49 pm (UTC)
you're hot.
what the fuck?? look like a man? you have to be kidding amanda. hang out with me tomorrow night (tuesday.) please. want to go see a movie? or we could do something free. i won't sleep through our plans this time- promise.
shakewell
Jun. 6th, 2005 10:55 pm (UTC)
i am kidding!
it's totally a joke. (though, i seem to be the only one laughing.)

you're on for tomorrow!
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