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a parisian engagement

my first great love wrote to tell me he was engaged yesterday. and it's really weird because i'm honestly nothing but happy for him. i have seen how happy she makes him and there is nothing i want more for him than to see him truly happy and at peace.

it's weird that of all my previous wedding experience has left me more off balance than this the news of this engagement. i still love him very much but i know we were not meant to be. in typical hollywood dramas, i'd be sad or scheming sabotage, but there's no reason. he is happy. that's all i ever wanted for him. i'm so glad that she could give him what i could not.

for all the pain our breakup caused him, i know now that i did the right thing for him. i thought i knew it then, but now i'm sure.

anyway, it's really awesome that he could tell me this. "i hope youre happy for me. im sure you are, since you are a great friend, but still, you know." in most other cases, i have a really hard time dealing with exes' new lovers. i guess i just hate seeing them get hurt. but not this time. not when it seems right.

and i thought it was really awesome that he was genuinely concerned about what i thought of his news. that shows me that he really does consider me a good friend to him. that my opnion, my approval, is important to him.

i wonder if they'll get married in paris...

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joe_fisher
Feb. 22nd, 2005 01:29 pm (UTC)
Thats excellent, it is a wonderful feeling isnt it? when people you care about find themselves in good situaations. it somehow gives you a deep satisfaction, somtimes deeper then you'd expect!
shakewell
Feb. 22nd, 2005 10:29 pm (UTC)
totally
tracibop7
Feb. 22nd, 2005 04:02 pm (UTC)
It's so awesome that you are happy with him and fine with it. I wonder if I'll reach that point with my first love when he gets married. To know you made it ok with that news takes a little worry off of me :)
shakewell
Feb. 22nd, 2005 10:30 pm (UTC)
i suppose it would be different if it had been he whom had broken my heart. i'm not sure i'm at a place where i can accept that yet. i know i will be someday though. and so will you!
spk1121
Feb. 22nd, 2005 04:08 pm (UTC)
Honeymoon in Vegas
Wow, that's pretty neat. Mutual respect and happiness -- always nice! *thumbs up*
surjay
Feb. 22nd, 2005 05:33 pm (UTC)
Speaking of which, we need to renew our vows in Venice sometime!
shakewell
Feb. 22nd, 2005 10:31 pm (UTC)
shit... we never even had a honeymoon
surjay
Feb. 23rd, 2005 01:07 am (UTC)
shoot......name the place and time and I'll make it happen.
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