anyway, in the midst of that tingling, i woke up a little. i was just conscious enough to realize i was still in that paralized state of dream sleep. and then i got caught up in that low blood pressure feeling (nearly passing out). it was a very weird thing to experience while sleeping.
i started my hepatitis b vaccination today. even with all the techs and nurses telling me how bad it would hurt, the shot didn't bother me in the least. i even watched the whole time.
i find it odd that i have such control over physical pain, and so little control over the emotional.
i feel i'm so abnormal in that respect.
my japanese teacher called me out several times in class today. i wish i had more time to devote to my sutdies. at this point, i'm lucky to get my homework. anyway, he made a fool of me and it sucked. he also discussed the mistakes i made on my test in front of the whole class. i can't begin to describe how uncomfortable that made me.
also, someone helped me cheat on my quiz and i didn't even ask them too. i'm declaring this boy my valentine this year (since i forgot to get a boyfriend again). i will shower him with gifts and affection!
i want to make cupcakes this weekend. anyone want to help?
lent begins tomorrow and, although i'm not catholic, i'm going to participate this year. lent is a season of soul-searching and repentance. it is a season for reflection and taking stock.
i have a greater purpose in mind for all this, but i'll leave it unsaid.
and to keep it always on my mind, i'll be 'fasting.' it's not really a christian fast. i'm giving up meat (not fish) and all beverages except water (a devious trick to lick my caffienne habit). so, everyday, when i want something i can't have, i'll have to think about why. it's going to be 40 days with 3 meals a day forcing me to remember my motivation.
though, i sure am going to eat a lot of crab rangoon and popcorn shrimp!
i guess they don't count sundays into lent (when it starts on ash wednesday), but i'm just going to go straight through to march 25.