April 28th, 2006


living single

i don't know why i continue to pursue him. in a way, it actually disgusts me. regardless of whether he is or isn't into me--which is still completely fucking debatable at this point (depending on who you talk to)--it's not like it even matters. i'm leaving in a week. i will be gone for at least three months and will have limited contact with home.

shit. i just hate being rejected. and i hate mixed signals!

on a much lighter note, it's like fireman city downtown today. that really brightened up my morning.

one thing i hate: being picked on one second and then caressed the next. (though i suppose it's better than being picked on all the time or not being caressed at all.)

one thing i love: falling asleep instantly, in someone else's arms.

one randomly awesome thing: ghostbusters was on tv this morning!

one completely unawesome thing: that son of a bitch gave me another (bigger, darker) hickey. my "parting gift."

shit. ass. fuck.

yeah... i said it.

Voice Post:

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“I realize I haven't quite given this a chance yet, but, uh, if, I ever think that having a going-away party is a good idea again... just, remind me that it's not. In fact, convince me, and punch me, and hit me over the head... if I <i>ever ever ever</i> think it's a good idea again. But, you know, maybe this will turn out better. But, right now I'm sitting alone, in my car, outside the bowling alley, in beach grove, drinking a Sparks. Talk. about. awesome. But, I'll tell you what, I'm fuggin', ready to leave, ready to go to Hawaii, so... I guess that's something.”

Transcribed by: sephon
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