January 1st, 2006

harm

here's to another year, another leaf, another anywhere but here

there's no such thing as a best friend. s/he's just the one with the sharpest blade.

i gave up a lot of things to take care of some people who were super special to me tonight. much like last year and the one before, it was a tremendous fucking mistake, which only hurt everyone involved.

i am
completely
fucking
impotent.

i quit.

i know it was a completely unappreciated gesture on my part, but i wish there was someone here to hold me back tonight.

the road to hell is paved with good intentions.