December 15th, 2004

lightning strikes twice

settling in [miraasan]

perhaps it is i who has the penchant for drama. certainly, when it strikes, i tend to maximize it's destructive force.

i have to remember to stay calm. i have let them win again. and now there is no going back.

it's strange here. it's hard to write what i know no one is reading. i feel like i should be some other person here, but i have not changed.

it seems a crime to have run away only to end up in the shadows of where i started. maybe now is my chance to really be me again. i have pushed them all away. those that come back and find me, the real me, here will appreciate it.

and those that don't won't miss me.