it's the juice that makes it juicy

that fucking indian on his fucking cellphone woke me up a-fucking-gain. i told him to shut the fuck up then of course i slammed my door and that goddamn celing tile thingy fell down again in my kitchen. this time it broke. i'm so angry it's stupid.

i'll never get back to sleep now.

i really want to call
i know that he's awake

but what do i want to say?

nothing in particular.

not that it matters anyway
since i'm so weird about the damn phone
my dad once told me it's rude to call after 9pm
maybe it was 8
unless it's been specifically requested

so, i'll just sit here and fume
damn it

somewhere between 2 and 3 o'clock i got some sleep. it was like an acid trip. i was on a stealth mission in enemy territory. i was waiting in some bushes lying (laying?) on my stomach. then it was like i was being dragged by my ankles only i wasn't. but the scenery fell away like i was. there was snow on the ground. all i could think about is how the enemy would surely see my tracks and know that i had seen them. i forget the rest...

attn freshmen:
i need some RSVPs for this clue party so i can pick out a mystery suitable for our group's size.
where: drjeffy parents' house in madison
when: dec. 26 - somewhere around 3 - 7pm (the game takes a couple hours to play)
what to bring: you may dress in costume though it is not encessary. maybe props. i forget now if this is a dinner party or what. i believe the games i was looking at kind of revolved around that theme, but there are many others. i certainly wouldn't be opposed to eating some of this deliscious food that you all seem to be making all of the damn time.

anyway, please just RSVP here by ummm... the 18th i guess. sooner if you can.

drjeffy, i'll send something out to the seniors and see who's interested there. i haven't even heard if anyone is for sure coming to our damn seniors party. have you? keep me posted.

got caught up in audioscrobbler this morning waiting for jo3 to bring my japanese workbook back. slept for a minute, but woke up when he came back an hour later because he left his workbook and took mine (which was incomplete).

i feel so, so tired, but as soon as i get into bed i'm wide awake again. it's so frustrating. god i hate being sick!

at least i got some nice emails today. they made me very happy. unfortunately, they also made me very not sleepy. heh. oh well.

turns out my final C project isn't as complicated as i was making it, so i'll be putting that off for another few hours or a day maybe. i love that i have procrastination down to an exact science these days. it sure was terrible staying up all night in high school to do some silly project just to get a stupid B. now i can write an A paper or speech in less than three hours. programs range from 3-12 hours, but i always get 100% of the points or more. minitab and maple projects take under 15 minutes if i just go to office hours first and have some one explain the command prompts to me. and japanese compositions take about 30 minutes total to both write and translate.

i guess it would probably be better to get things done early, though. not that i would know anything about that at all.

i'd like to go for a drive today, but i can't afford the gas. that sucks. i need an adventure.

i wish i had known it was so warm out last night, i would have gone for a jog. i couldn't believe it when i walked out the door and thought, "damn it's hot." i mean, it is December, right? it has already snowed this year, yeah?

i want to find some nice roofs to hang out on on nights like those. that's one thing i really miss about madison and warren. i could climb on anything i dared to and never get hurt or caught. maybe i'm just a coward in my old age, but these big city buildings seem quite out of my league.

sorry i'm so random today.

CLUE GUESTS SO FAR: (i'll keep this on each post to let you all know and to remind others to RSVP)
me, jeff, polina, anne, emily, tracy (you're for sure coming, right?)

i've gone from compulsive to impulsive. went for a drive. ended up at a bookstore in another town. waiting. hoping. read 42 chapters of the da vinci code. (i'm once again amazed at my ability to completely lose myself in words.) stayed until close. will have to make another adventure soon and finish the novel. did some creeping. left a half-assed note. drove back home. tried to conjure up inspirational messages for a friend, but fell short. it was a neat idea though. now, i must sleep. but i have to remember to stop being this way. i'm probably freaking people out. sorry.