shopaholic
i deposited my first paycheck from the 'x today. and since it had been over two months since i deposited my last paycheck, i'd forgotten that i'd been putting money from each check away for ayden.
so, in honor of ben's visit to indy today and in light of my now being dead to him, i took all that money out and spent it!
i got some good little gifts for a couple of friends and i also bought some cute things for myself. i finally got a pair of fucking sunglasses too (thank god!).
i saw a lot of cute things that i would have loved to have bought for ayden, but that's not my place anymore. so, i just bought some snazzy, dressy stuff for me instead.
i think i could really get into fashion. who ever thought i would be out shopping for skirts and heels? certainly not me. but it sure does feel good to look good.
it also feels good--really good--to not apologize for not doing anything wrong.
XXX
sometimes, i really fucking love mall muzak. it gets me SO pumped.
probably too pumped. heh.
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much love.
so, in honor of ben's visit to indy today and in light of my now being dead to him, i took all that money out and spent it!
i got some good little gifts for a couple of friends and i also bought some cute things for myself. i finally got a pair of fucking sunglasses too (thank god!).
i saw a lot of cute things that i would have loved to have bought for ayden, but that's not my place anymore. so, i just bought some snazzy, dressy stuff for me instead.
i think i could really get into fashion. who ever thought i would be out shopping for skirts and heels? certainly not me. but it sure does feel good to look good.
it also feels good--really good--to not apologize for not doing anything wrong.
XXX
sometimes, i really fucking love mall muzak. it gets me SO pumped.
probably too pumped. heh.
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much love.