you know, it's great that you're loved by him.
but it's too bad you never realized you were loved by others.
i don't write much love always because it looks cute at the end of an email
i write it because i mean it.
eh, fuck her anyway.
but what's with the shit she writes?
does she think i'm jealous of her relationship with phil?
or that i want phil or something?
it's like she's always selling what a fabulous guy he is
and how lucky and thankful she is to have him.
and i do mean selling.
it seems really strange to me.
i feel like she's trying to rub it in my face or something.
maybe i'm reading too much into it.
i don't know.
but there just seems to be something off about the things she writes.
of course, i've never seen much of her writing.
so maybe that's just how she is.
maybe her remarks that are implicitly directed at me
throw me off about the rest of what she has to say.
maybe she's just a dumb bitch
and i should quit caring about her at all.
i love that i'm trying to study
and all i can think about are red and blue power nodes
being constructed and destroyed
i'd ask him to turn it down
or use his headphones
but there's no point
he'll just use my request as some lame excuse to be a prick
shouldn't he know by now
that no one else wants/needs to hear that shit?
just made some valentine's day cupcakes
but after today's episode
and it's bitter reminder of relationships in my past
i wonder if i'll have anyone to share them with
i know i'm doing it.
i don't want to do it.
but still i do it.
i wish it really was so easy
that i could just turn this off.