October 9th, 2002

sqeez

i'm a kinfe, knifin' around [melo]

i want to cut again. really bad. but i can't. i'm going home soon. a week i think. i don't want to have to explain things again. i don't want him to know i'm sad. i don't want him to know i can't control it.

but i guess i can control it. the act anyway. not the thought.

ugh. but it hurts so good.