February 4th, 2002

sqeez

i asked for mild sauce, but he gave me the hots

what's with me and boys, eh?
how is it that i seduce people without even knowing it?
and why do i keep getting into shit when i know it's a bad idea?

it always surprises me when boys are attracted to me. i know i'm not ugly really, but i'm not exactly beautiful, either. christ, i don't even bother to look in the mirror these days. maybe the fact that i don't give a shit about my looks is attractive some people. it funny, though, because i don't bother trying to gussy myself at all up because i don't think it will help anything. have you ever seen me try to wear make-up?! funny stuff.

and besides all that, i'm under the impression that most people think i'm a bitch a lot of the time. and i agree. so what the fuck is attractive about that?

boys. i'll never understand them.
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to tide you over until the next episode

About 10 years ago...
1. i moved to indiana
2. i cut off all my hair
3. i enrolled in gymnastics
4. i realized how mean people really are

About 5 years ago...
1. i met my best friend
2. i got drunk for the first time
3. i did more than kiss a boy
4. i dyed my hair, shaved my eyebrow and pierced my bellybutton

About 2 years ago...
1. i realized i wasn't going to graduate on time
2. i pushed my friends away before they left me
3. i tried ecstasy for the first time
4. i broke his heart to save him

About 1 year ago...
1. i finally got a fucking job
2. i relapsed
3. i knew envy, jealousy and hate
4. i got my lip pierced

Today I...
1. i lied about something to make someone feel better
2. i filed my taxes, sent my fafsa and applied to college
3. watched football
4. updated my livejournal!
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over and out

well i found a midas today and took advantage of my free brake inspection. got a bunch of mechanic, motorhead jive, but basically my brakes are fine - for the time being anyhow. i will need to get them fixed in the near future and it will cost me $150, but at least i don't have to drop my entire first paycheck on that beast. so that's good.

so i'll be headed out here in a few. stoppin' in to see joe before i trek back to btown. i said i might go into work tonight, but i don't think i feel up to it. maybe i'll do a couple of hours or something. we'll see, i guess.

hope you all enjoyed my updates. until we get the crackhouse re-wired for interweb, my updates will be few and far between. big loss, i know.

peace out, my niggas.
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