i've gone from compulsive to impulsive. went for a drive. ended up at a bookstore in another town. waiting. hoping. read 42 chapters of the da vinci code. (i'm once again amazed at my ability to completely lose myself in words.) stayed until close. will have to make another adventure soon and finish the novel. did some creeping. left a half-assed note. drove back home. tried to conjure up inspirational messages for a friend, but fell short. it was a neat idea though. now, i must sleep. but i have to remember to stop being this way. i'm probably freaking people out. sorry.