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>>>the facebook has me feeling like i'm a complete anti-socialite. i need to make more friends at school. immediately. but, god! they're all such dorks.

>>>i think my dad's going to move my piano down to my apartment soon. i'm so excited. i know that i won't play all that often, but it will still be nice to have to opportunity available.

>>>my hands, feet and nose are so cold.

>>>today i have to figure out my financial situation for the next semester. the next few years really. i'm done asking my parents for money. i will do this on my own or i won't do it at all.

>>>i finally started slacking in japanese. luckily, the semester is nearly over so i can't harm my performance in there too awful much.

>>>i've realized that i've lost the passion for everything in my life. of course, people were the only thing i ever had passion for. i hope that it comes back again someday, but the pessimist in me doubts that it will. it makes me angry that i let people change me in such a fundamental way.

>>>the opportunity exists to reconcile, but what is there to salvage? more lies? more hate? i can see why he cares for me, but i've forgotten why i should care for him.

>>>i think i'm taking the easy way out.

i wonder what life is like in the center of a universe that doesn't exist.



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Nov. 29th, 2004 10:16 am (UTC)
antisocialness is the name of the game

Gyg's advice on rediscovering the Passion of the Life: Try looking in your life for the really small things you enjoy and going from there to bigger things, gradually, but for me that helped me get a start. Then I made a point to make sure my life included more of the small things, then more of the big things.
Nov. 29th, 2004 09:55 pm (UTC)
facebook sounds pretty cool
i would totally join it if wichita state weren't lame.
Nov. 30th, 2004 06:32 am (UTC)
Hey there-
Did you get the comment with my new address on it?
It might have messed up.
Nov. 30th, 2004 09:40 am (UTC)
10819 Wymm Ln. Ingalls, IN 46048
Nov. 30th, 2004 09:56 am (UTC)
things to be passionate about
Have you tried exercise and/or pets? Running and getting a dog both helped me find passion again when I was in a pretty pessimistic place.
Nov. 30th, 2004 10:03 am (UTC)
Re: things to be passionate about
well my kitten left me passionate in a pretty hateful way (sleep is quite prescious to me and she just didn't respect that). but i think you're right about the excercise. i've been meaning to get back into that for quite a while anyway, but if could help with this dilema it seems quite a bit more urgent. thanks for the advice!
Nov. 30th, 2004 07:49 pm (UTC)
Re: things to be passionate about
lol - i'm a kitten-owner dropout as well. tried it for a couple of months, but it just wasn't for me. when i figured out that i'd have broken up with her after a week (for various reasons) if she were a guy, i decided to end it. the little bastard liked to try to lick up my nostrils while i was asleep. now she lives across the street with a really nice couple and i am here with my rambunctious dog. and we all lived happily ever after.
Nov. 30th, 2004 12:35 pm (UTC)
i assure you i'm not a dork. geek definately. meeting new people is fun, so we should go eat sushi or something sometime!
Nov. 30th, 2004 12:47 pm (UTC)
i've never actually had sushi
but it's worth a try! plus i'm really into being geeky japanese now that i'm learning the language.

i'm generally free on weekends (fri-sun) now that i've convieniently lost my job. and also mon and wed afternoons.
Nov. 30th, 2004 02:44 pm (UTC)
Re: i've never actually had sushi
umm...friday for lunch?

so you're a sushi virgin...this will be fun! hehe.
and i'll make sure we stop at the japanese grocery store. i think you'll like it.

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