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a life-long learner. literally.

i'm bored out of my fucking mind here in the lab today. so, i've been thinking about my college goals some more. i am definitely going to minor in japanese and i'll probably take all four years of courses even though i only need three. i'm still thinking about some sort of concentration in physics, but i'm not going to think any more about that until i get my introductory classes out of the way this summer.

what the hell am i going to do with a double major in math and physics and a minor in japanese? probably teach algebra in madison. so why waste my time? well, i guess i don't think it is a waste. though it may be hard to convince myself of that when i'm paying back all these student loans.

i suppose i would probably be able to teach japanese or physics if i needed a change of pace. that reminds me, i would also like to get my journalism certificate while i'm at all of this. but that is definitely on hold for now as well.

and all of this is exactly why i hate that my talents are so diverse. i'd bet that if i were super-awesome at math, i wouldn't even think about leaving my options open. i'd be all "hell yeah! math rules #1!" for the rest of my god damned life.

but i'm not super-awesome at math, nor physics. i am actually totally awesome at japanese for the moment, but i doubt that will last. (similar to my experience in german.) wouldn't it be great if i wasted all this time studying math then decided to go with japanese instead while i'm in the JET program. ha! no.

anyway, i'm afraid to make any one decision. none of them feels particularly right.

sometimes, i also wonder if this isn't some sort of defeatist behavior to prevent myself from ever getting involved in a healthy relationship. i work full-time. i take 18-hour semesters and enroll in both summer sessions. i have eliminated the possibility of even thinking about having a life for the next three years.

that is, of course, unless i can find someone who is ok with my idea of quality time--sharing some meals, sleeping over and maybe spending a few wakeful hours together on the weekend.

since, i doubt that will happen, i'm giving up my dream of getting married before i'm 30. *sigh*

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i was inspired to make a really neat art project today. i don't have the time or the money to do it right now, though. besides, i'm in the middle of a couple of other projects already. still, it would have been neat!

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surjay
Oct. 16th, 2004 01:06 pm (UTC)
I guess it is not all a waste in the end. No matter what, an accomplishment is an accomplishment. Granted, paying back this pile of loans I have while reaping no rewards from this degree does tend to suck.

Diversity is good, as well. I know what your saying, though. That's how I feel about most things. A defined path seems like it would be nice. Maybe it is easier that way, but I like to think it doesn't make it better.

I'll get mines someday, and so will you.....in regards to every aspect of life.
sexion
Oct. 16th, 2004 01:21 pm (UTC)
interesting...i had a life in college, but i sure don't have one now. i've had 4 days off since labor day weekend and work between 10 - 14 hours a day. i'm pretty sure i'll be single forever.
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