i crave desserts like mad. MAD. generally, i do not have the willpower to abstain. it's getting pretty ridiculous.

i think the depression causes the cravings, so it makes sense that they've spike recently.

where was i when they taught this apparently universal coping skill to simply deal with the world?

i do not think i will ever change. (i don't think anyone ever changes, actually. people learn and grow, but i never see them unlearn.)

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my brother was at my apartment while i was out yesterday. i came home to find the lazarus macy's catalog in the bathroom, opened to the lingerie section.

eww.

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my friends at work are picking on me now. they think it's absolutely hilarious. yesterday someone dumped lemonade over my head and today it was water while i was snoozing before the shift.

now i'm not sad that they're leaving anymore.

other people seem to notice that i am upset. they ask if i'm ok and if they're anything they can do, but i'm too busy hating life to appreciate the gestures.

i am such a jerk.

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i'm so effing tired.

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i'm hanging out with sameer in the testing center today. talk, talk, talk. he's nice though. he insists i need to transfer to bloomington. heh.