i will have this.

even if it is 10 years from now, when all my student loans are paid off and i'm not worried whether i'll have enough change to put enough gas in my piece of shit car so that i can make it to my disposable job on time.

not that things are that bad right now, but they will be soon i think. a few months if i don't start getting more hours at the x and the testing lab. god, then i'll be where he is--only i won't be digging through the trash or begging for handouts.

even if i'm near-starvation, i'd rather be self-sufficient than be a leech.

i think i would starve to death before i asked for help. i'm that stubborn.

i guess it's a good thing so many people still owe me so much money. i was ready to buy those cameras. i just hope they start paying me back before i start starving.

well, i think a storm is brewing. i'm outtie!