so, in honor of ben's visit to indy today and in light of my now being dead to him, i took all that money out and spent it!
i got some good little gifts for a couple of friends and i also bought some cute things for myself. i finally got a pair of fucking sunglasses too (thank god!).
i saw a lot of cute things that i would have loved to have bought for ayden, but that's not my place anymore. so, i just bought some snazzy, dressy stuff for me instead.
i think i could really get into fashion. who ever thought i would be out shopping for skirts and heels? certainly not me. but it sure does feel good to look good.
it also feels good--really good--to not apologize for not doing anything wrong.
sometimes, i really fucking love mall muzak. it gets me SO pumped.
probably too pumped. heh.
the phone calls today were quite a mess. i made a practice call to domino's and ordered a pizza. i pretty much fucked that call up in every way possible. ops!
after that i felt like i couldn't possibly do any worse, so i called micah. i think i was fine, but i could tell he was super-nervous, so that made me nervous. man... i think i may have hung up on him in the end, i really don't know. i was glad to talk to him again, but i was really glad to get off that damn phone too.
i called angie, but just left messages. she's so hard to get ahold of in person.
i called wes, but he wasn't home. it was during that call that i noticed i have two different greetings depending on who answers the phone. if it's the person i'm trying to reach i just say "hey, (your name)! what's up?" and hope that they recognize my voice. if it's anyone else, i say "may i please speak to (that person)?"
i think the "may i please..." business makes me come off like a dork, so i try to avoid saying it to people i actually hang out with. of course, i don't want come off as rude to anyone else (especially parents) so that's why i try to be polite to others.
^it's probably things like that make me so nervous about making calls.
hmmm... stewbot called before ER and then i called him back after ER and that was cake because i talk to him all the time.
i was also going to call my sister, but it was late and i never can remember when she works, so i scratched that plan.
and i couldn't remember when i said i'd call me0wkp so i didn't call her either. i will definitely call her when i get to town Saturday!
and at some point i will have to call wheninhell.
oh and i have to call nicholas back even though i just talked to him yesterday.
how does someone who hates the phone so much end up making so many calls?! it's crazy...