here is something i wrote about the whole being in love with ben situation this summer. i don't expect anyone to understand it, since i've said it all a hundred times before, but this is the best explanation of what was going through my head at the time.
we won't even talk about who took this to mean i wanted to fuck ben and who actually encouraged me to seduce him.
if you're too stupid to understand, i won't apologize for something i didn't do. i won't apologize for thinking ben is an admirable man.