jezzuhkah: so whats the deal with you and amandaaaa
threedTM: i dunno, im afraid of commitment
threedTM: i saw the walls closing in on me
threedTM: and it scared the shit out of me
threedTM: so i sorta freaked out and rejected her
jezzuhkah: whats with guys and fear of commitment!!
as the get up kids say.. (one day doesn't mean the rest of my life )
threedTM: but its close enough.... i dunno... i don't know if things were perfect
jezzuhkah: nothing is perfect.
threedTM: and i know theres other things out there to expreience, and i don't want to sell myself short
jezzuhkah: but, were you happy?
threedTM: for a while
threedTM: then my mind just started
jezzuhkah: other girls.. or just thinking..
jezzuhkah: you know this is between you and i..
threedTM: just thinking mostly
* threedTM is in privacy
jezzuhkah: amanda seems really sweet, but i see her being quite dependent upon you..
threedTM: we almost ran out of space
threedTM: i got bored
threedTM: fo' real
jezzuhkah: but.. i dunnno if i see you wanting a serious girlfriend either..
threedTM: i just don't want to settle down
threedTM: i felt restricted
jezzuhkah: what did she want
threedTM: so i made an exit.
threedTM: too much i guess
jezzuhkah: soooo, dod you think things with you and amanda are over for good....?
threedTM: i have no clue
threedTM: things are strange
threedTM: i haven't talked much to her
threedTM: but she keeps messaging me
threedTM: and emailed me once
jezzuhkah: it's so hard.. i dunno.. yeah.. hmm..
jezzuhkah: oh god!
jezzuhkah: I HAVE THE SONG FOR YOU!
jezzuhkah: SHIT YES!
threedTM: i did see her a couple days ago. we talked a little bit.
jezzuhkah: WE COULD SOOOOOOOOOO DANCE TO THIS!
threedTM: i gave her a kiss on her cheek, and she said - hey you can't do that anymore
jezzuhkah: did you and swell have a song?
threedTM: no, not really... maybe suicide machines... maybe?
threedTM: the suicide machines - extraordinary
jezzuhkah: gettin it!
jezzuhkah: i love knwoing peoples songs!
threedTM: lyrics are pretty a-okay
jezzuhkah: what a cool concept. having a song! so cool
threedTM: back in the day we sang it to each other
threedTM: i remember looking up
threedTM: and seeing her lip the "theres an extraordinary thing about you"
jezzuhkah: even you and i had a song! everyone should have a song!
threedTM: it was cute...
threedTM: emotional ride tongith
jezzuhkah: haha! did you know i was sorta planning on having sex with you last year!
jezzuhkah: last last year!
threedTM: why didn't you tell ME.
jezzuhkah: i dunnnnno
threedTM: ain't gonna cause a scene
jezzuhkah: but it's probably for the best.. we would have broke up , and things might be weird!
threedTM: things are probably better this way
threedTM: but still... im a guy, im kicking myself over here
threedTM: its time i got back.
jezzuhkah: haha! well member the faint concert we were gonna go to
threedTM: yea yea
jezzuhkah: well i would have had to sleep over, ya know!
jezzuhkah: but anyways!
threedTM: dont TELL ME THESE THINGS
threedTM: please =P
threedTM: even though its kinda funny.
threedTM: its DEPRESSING.
jezzuhkah: dude it would have been bad! you would go back to amanda and i would sob over you and hate you!
threedTM: yeah. thats true.
threedTM: but still
threedTM: <<-- male
threedTM: boo hoo
jezzuhkah: didn't you wanna have sex with me!
threedTM: don't get me started.
jezzuhkah: haha i should send your bear back
threedTM: lol.. no shit you should
jezzuhkah: swell is/was kinda pissed that i never got around to it!
threedTM: i know
threedTM: i never heard the end of it
jezzuhkah: oh.. sorry.
threedTM: its all good, not that big of a deal
jezzuhkah: its not like i sleep with it! i'm just lazy!
threedTM: right right ...
threedTM: i UUNDERSTAND
threedTM: WINK WINK
threedTM: NUDGE NUDGE
jezzuhkah: do you still do drugs/.?
threedTM: eh, kinda.
threedTM: i smoke pot about once a week...
threedTM: more so lately.
threedTM: i quit mostly everything else though
threedTM: i haven't rolled in... months...
jezzuhkah: thats good
jezzuhkah: shit is bad for you
threedTM: yeah... it is.
threedTM: it never hurt me though.
threedTM: but still
jezzuhkah: and i never buy it!
threedTM: i started smoking again
threedTM: ive been so bad the past 2 weeks
jezzuhkah: thats one of your flaws!
jezzuhkah: but i am no one to judge.
jezzuhkah: you're pretty awesome
threedTM: smoking is dumb. i pretty much almost quit...
jezzuhkah: i've been trying to get you to foevah eva!
threedTM: its hard when my best friend smokes.
threedTM: its hard.
threedTM: its all a social thing
jezzuhkah: haha i hated when amanda called me your internet girlfriend!!!
threedTM: its a good term though
jezzuhkah: but now it's funny
jezzuhkah: but she used it to make fun of me!
threedTM: most definately....
threedTM: she was jealous
jezzuhkah: she should be!! i'm a hottie!
jezzuhkah: haha i rmemeber reading her journal and ebing jealous!
jezzuhkah: i love looking back on stuff! i got so jelaous! but now it's like whatevs dude!
threedTM: haha, what? fems are crazy...
jezzuhkah: you just don't get it!
threedTM: but i guess i can sorta understand some if it
jezzuhkah: are you ever jealous!
threedTM: all the time.
jezzuhkah: i hate you unjealous guys!
threedTM: actually i have had nothing to be jealous of
threedTM: i might be soon though
threedTM: smart man!
jezzuhkah: NO!! girls like a little jealousy!
threedTM: i dunno, it amanda starts dating someone, it'll probably hit me pretty hard
jezzuhkah: yeah.. that always works,,,
threedTM: bound to happen sometime
threedTM: just face it head on, i suppose
jezzuhkah: i haven't been really upset over a boy since you, after you i was the heart breaker!
jezzuhkah: and you'll date girls
threedTM: thats funny
threedTM: IM THE HEARTBREAKER GOD DAMMIT
jezzuhkah: and how many did you actually mean it
threedTM: let me think about it
threedTM: said... i think about 5
threedTM: meant... i don't really know
threedTM: i guess i know what love is...
threedTM: but lately my how view on everything is... different
jezzuhkah: sweet dude. uhh have you been thinking about me more often.. not in like a sexual or anything like that, but just in general
threedTM: sure have. why?
jezzuhkah: because i have
threedTM: just cuz we talk again
jezzuhkah: what are you going to send me, since i made you a cd!
threedTM: ummm, i dunno?
threedTM: take dirtypicturesTM
jezzuhkah: you're going to taker dirty pictures?
jezzuhkah: does dirty pictures = naked pictures?1
threedTM: not really
jezzuhkah: i'm so confused?
threedTM: don't be. im sure acting crazy
jezzuhkah: haha i thought it said grape! jaja
jezzuhkah: so youre sending me dirty pictures?
threedTM: lol, no... i dont do that
threedTM: but i could
threedTM: whachoo want
jezzuhkah: yes you do!
jezzuhkah: you have!
threedTM: i got the camera, and im home alone
jezzuhkah: you have so!
threedTM: and IM 19
jezzuhkah: i have seen your penis!
threedTM: i dont show that anymore
threedTM: penis is ugly
threedTM: chicks like bare chest
jezzuhkah: haha! wooord. my camera is not here
jezzuhkah: what do boys like
threedTM: tease shots are fun
threedTM: dont show it.... but act like you are... growl.
jezzuhkah: so pictures
threedTM: what about em
threedTM: i need instructions if im gonna get kinky
jezzuhkah: haha is this bad? like am i being bad?
threedTM: i dunno. probably.
jezzuhkah: you could take a picture of youseldf anyway
threedTM: i need instructions
jezzuhkah: be cute! thats not hahrd
threedTM: it could be
threedTM: oh god.. haha
jezzuhkah: nu uhh1 you are cute
jezzuhkah: am i being annoying
jezzuhkah: id on't mean to be
*** jezzuhkah has received cap_004.jpg.
jezzuhkah: belly;s are niceeee
threedTM: i rule.
threedTM: thats about as dirty as i can get... im weak.
jezzuhkah: gert dirrrrty! haha
jezzuhkah: i could take a picture for you, but nothing bad!
threedTM: do it champ
jezzuhkah: buti have to go home first
threedTM: that suxor
jezzuhkah: are you willing to wait
threedTM: sure am!
jezzuhkah: k bye!
jezzuhkah: remind her, im sure she got caught up in looking at herself in the mirror -- thanks dick
*** Auto-response sent to jezzuhkah: snooze mode.
jezzuhkah: ow to me!
jezzuhkah: like i hope you didn't mean that
threedTM: yeah, im sorry about that comment.
threedTM: i knew it was going to come back and haunt me.
jezzuhkah: i'm beginning to think it's true.. ali and i got in a fight yesterday wher she told me i am over confident and seem fake..
threedTM: well, you need to find a good balance of confidence and timidness. or something like that.
jezzuhkah: so i am an over confident jerk?
threedTM: i dont think so... but that comment was aimed at the fact you never mentioned anything about that bear, but had time to talk about yourself in your comments... and ignore the other comments.
jezzuhkah: fine i'll send the fucking bear back, i'm sorr
threedTM: your taking this the wrong way.
jezzuhkah: well i'm sorry
threedTM: don't be sorry, its my fault.
jezzuhkah: i was just so upset yesterday and then i read that and it made me feel horrible again
threedTM: what happened yesterday?
jezzuhkah: ali basically told me i wasn't a good friend.. that i make her feel inferrior.. and that she doens't understand why i am confident and happy.. and i never asks questions about her life..
threedTM: ugh, thats not all too great...
jezzuhkah: but i call her and email her and such and she rarely has time to return my phone calls.. it just hurt, no one has ever said that to me.. then my best friend does.. and then i read what you wrote.. and i wouldn't care very much.. but these are my friends
threedTM: hrmm. im sorry.. maybe i have something to cheer you up
*** jezzuhkah has received hotwallpaper.jpg.
jezzuhkah: THAT MAKES ME FEEL WORSE!!!!
threedTM: oh. doh.
threedTM: i spent lots of time on it.
jezzuhkah: yup, it's me being vain!
jezzuhkah: but it looks cool!
threedTM: guess it was a bad time to send it
jezzuhkah: haha probably! but it is pretty cool.. yous got mad skillz
jezzuhkah: but i thought you weren't svaing those pictures mr!!
threedTM: hahahahah, oh shit.. i lied!
jezzuhkah: don't get either of us in trouble! =)
threedTM: dont worry, its it a leet hidden folder
jezzuhkah: will you see amanda
threedTM: shes coming down to watch er on thursday
jezzuhkah: i love getting together to watch telly. josh and i wtahc six feet under together and i make him watch sex and the city in the summer
threedTM: teevee is aight.
jezzuhkah: is er your guys' fav?
threedTM: shes all about it
threedTM: im all about adult swim
jezzuhkah: have fun masturbating and looking at porno
threedTM: i don't masturbate to this stuff. its strictly bizness.
jezzuhkah: what do you masturbate to!
threedTM: good porn.
threedTM: hot chicks!
jezzuhkah: haha! like me! JK
threedTM: don't kid.
threedTM: ah, that's no good. so, whats your plans for the fall? iu?
jezzuhkah: studying art.. and maybe some journalism.. hopefully work for a posh magazine in NYC or LA or CHICAGO
threedTM: best of luck. gonna hang out with me sometime?
jezzuhkah: if you're lucky =)
threedTM: ha... gonna be too cool for me?
jezzuhkah: probably not
jezzuhkah: the qestion is are you too cool for me
threedTM: no way.
jezzuhkah: hows livin with amanda
threedTM: she's all trying to get me to go back out with her
jezzuhkah: and you're not up for it
threedTM: i don't know if its the best thing really
jezzuhkah: tell me you're not having sex with her
threedTM: we haven't had sex for a long time
jezzuhkah: ok good
jezzuhkah: b/c sex with an ex, bad idea!
threedTM: RGR THAT
jezzuhkah: she emailed me the other day
threedTM: ja, was ist das?
threedTM: oh yeah, what about
jezzuhkah: how i never sent bear back and how she thinks i have a thing for you
threedTM: no shit
threedTM: my brain wonders what she said
threedTM: in her words
threedTM: that seems very strange.... wonder why she would think that?
threedTM: grab that file yet?
jezzuhkah: yeah yeah
threedTM: cool, im gonna delete it
jezzuhkah: i dunno.. beats the hell out of me.. i told her we rarely talk..
jezzuhkah: i dunno insecure.?
threedTM: hrmm.. possibly.
threedTM: so you on your night minutes?
threedTM: i know i am.. haha
jezzuhkah: night minutes?
threedTM: back a while ago, you mentioned something about your cell phone, eh?
jezzuhkah: i suppose i am, being that it is midnight
jezzuhkah: why are you calling me
threedTM: im not.
threedTM: i was just askin'. cuz now i'm a cell phone cancer patient.
jezzuhkah: ok i guess you can but i AM GOING TO BED SOON!
threedTM: if you want to talk i can give you a ring. if not, thats cool too. no big deal either way. i'll probably crash sometime soon.
threedTM: nelly furtado has a sexi voice. i swear.
jezzuhkah: just for a little, i'd like to, i just have to be up earrrly k
threedTM: cool deal. whats your digits killa?
jezzuhkah: 219 771 6145
threedTM: cool ... i gotta go out front, cuz my reception is horrible in here.
jezzuhkah: wanna call my home phono
threedTM: i hate your battery! and yes.
jezzuhkah: me too it's lame
jezzuhkah: 219 926 6991
threedTM: 69 ha
jezzuhkah: thatys rite
jezzuhkah: you do realize i'm going to be dead tomorrow at work! =) it was nice talkin
threedTM: im sorry, thanks again! keep in touch. sweetdreams jessica.
jezzuhkah: makwe sure you tell swell that you are not interested in me! tell her you think i'm ugly and such!
jezzuhkah: and that i have a fat ass!
threedTM: i'll see what i can do. you fat ugly ass.
jezzuhkah: yes! haha! night night!