things are not looking good for me.
besides the fact that i still feel like total ass and i would probably shit my pants if i had to go to work like this, i'm getting to the point where i don't know if i can come back.
it's embarassing. i don't know why exactly. but it's something similar to the reason why i can't walk into a lecture late. even though i know that other people barely notice i'm alive, i still get this sick feeling that they are talking shit about me. or are disappointed in me.
i never said they made sense. but at least i understand what my problems are.